I find it hard to write this. I have made multiple attempts, the remains tossed in the forge flames for my own sake as well as all of your's. I will not keep you long, as I hope that I have said everything I could want to say in person. I could not bear to leave anything important unsaid.
First. If Omega is still with you, please treat him kindly. Our hope is that, with the Emerald, he will not have to destroy himself in our attempt... but we are both aware of the risk. He will tell you otherwise, but know this was as much my doing as his. As a machine these things are complicated, but in many ways he is very young. As the elder, I pushed him to do what I felt needed doing. The idea was his, but I was the force of action in the end. I hope, Omega, if you are there, you can forgive me. I think I understand better the choice Hubert made. I will not blame you if you resent me as much as I've come to resent him.
Also, do not turn your hate upon Astarion. He had no part in my death. He was here to help with the weapon and nothing more. His silence was requested.
... it feels I should say more. But as I wrote before... I said all I think was important already. Know you all have my hope and affection.
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Date: 2025-08-16 08:24 pm (UTC)First. If Omega is still with you, please treat him kindly. Our hope is that, with the Emerald, he will not have to destroy himself in our attempt... but we are both aware of the risk. He will tell you otherwise, but know this was as much my doing as his. As a machine these things are complicated, but in many ways he is very young. As the elder, I pushed him to do what I felt needed doing. The idea was his, but I was the force of action in the end. I hope, Omega, if you are there, you can forgive me. I think I understand better the choice Hubert made. I will not blame you if you resent me as much as I've come to resent him.
Also, do not turn your hate upon Astarion. He had no part in my death. He was here to help with the weapon and nothing more. His silence was requested.
... it feels I should say more. But as I wrote before... I said all I think was important already. Know you all have my hope and affection.
Ferdinand